I have Already turned 21...ouch !!! that hurts.....I wanted to get away from home and be by myself, so I came to work.....The bug inside me still keeps churning.....Noooo...I am so not gonna have a bash, coz I know damn well that a bash is not gonna help at all..at least not at this time.......
Some very sweet ppl made my day go really bright today...but its all temperory...Hail Satan....what the f*** have I turned outa be....Feels like I wanna sit and cry in a corner, but I wonder if any tears would run down my cheeck let alone pop outa my eyes......I know that I can't feel anymore.... I can't care less about how you feel either. I am too damn wounded to celebrate n e thing, let alone this f****** birthday.
You wanna treat....here goes....For all you Ba*t**ds n' B*tc** who did me wrong, I put a hex on you.....for all you Warlocks n' Witches who tried to destroy me and hurt me intentionally or unintentionally I curse you with all my heart. (Now..now..now..wasn't that a tasty treat) !!!
I don't know what I'm gonna do the resta the day......all I know is that I wanna be untouched, unloved and alone....sneak in to my dark lil world and be barred from the resta the hooligans.......
Blessed Be !!!
Saturday, October 30, 2004
Thursday, October 28, 2004
Awsome !!!
It's kinda a crazy day......a part of me is happy and a part of me is sad.....feels like I got MPD.......he..he....Impity wimpity poof.....(thats the disappearing chant) !!!
Monday, October 25, 2004
Bad Bad Day !!!
ADSL was down the whole day.....geeezz...everything is held up.....Jack shit...I am so angry wih the world...angry with every body around. I hate everyhting happening around me.....Everything seems to be beyond my reach and beyond my control.......The only thing that makes me stronger is reading Anton Laveys words over and over again......I am tired...stressed out and drained, and the only sense of peace I have is the hope of gettig back at all the suckers who stabbed me and tore me apart......My anger is so strong, that I could run over the world with my lil dinky wheels.......
Was just wondering if writing on my journal would help squench my wild desire to sink my teeth in to his thin bones....and drain the very last drop of blood from him....I am the Devils Advocate....The Goddess of Dakness.....but worst of all I am your living, breathing nightmare waiting to take you to the depths of hell...Confusing???? My anger is indirect....I'll con you in to my world and suffercate your soul......(I shall stop.....coz the more I write..the more my anger burns inside me...and I just might end up yanking your tonsils out)!!!
He...he..he.. that ain't me.......that ain't satanism either.......check out the stuff stated below sweets......
When most people think of Satanism, images of Demons, Sacrifices, and Animal mutilations usually come to mind. After all that is what the media, and your local church has spoon fed to the masses for years. Most people assume that Satanists embrace evil, arenýt capable of loving, and that Satanism is nothing more than inverse Christianity. Nothing could be farther from the truth.
Satan by definition, it's true definition, is the Adversary, or the Opposition. We oppose the Status quo, and the closed minded herd mentality that fuels stupidity and ignorance like a social cancer. Instead we embrace Intellect, Objectivism, Individuality, and Rational self interest.
You are the only person who has control over your life, no "God" will make your life better for you. It is much like Santa Claus, we are told as children that if you don't believe in him you will be punished by not getting any presents. Religions of all kinds work in much the same way, with the exception of Satanism. We do not believe in things we cannot see, and yes that includes "Satan." Why should we, that is not rational.
I'm sure you are asking yourself, "Then why the name Satanism?" The answer is quite simple. Throughout history all religions have only preached obedience and faith while Individuality, and rational thought has been condemned and called ýevilý. It wasn't that long ago that the Churches attempted to ban books that provoke thought, and make people think for themselves instead of buying into the church scams and guilt trips. Satanism is quite the opposite, hence the term "Adversary" (The definition of Satan)
Was just wondering if writing on my journal would help squench my wild desire to sink my teeth in to his thin bones....and drain the very last drop of blood from him....I am the Devils Advocate....The Goddess of Dakness.....but worst of all I am your living, breathing nightmare waiting to take you to the depths of hell...Confusing???? My anger is indirect....I'll con you in to my world and suffercate your soul......(I shall stop.....coz the more I write..the more my anger burns inside me...and I just might end up yanking your tonsils out)!!!
He...he..he.. that ain't me.......that ain't satanism either.......check out the stuff stated below sweets......
When most people think of Satanism, images of Demons, Sacrifices, and Animal mutilations usually come to mind. After all that is what the media, and your local church has spoon fed to the masses for years. Most people assume that Satanists embrace evil, arenýt capable of loving, and that Satanism is nothing more than inverse Christianity. Nothing could be farther from the truth.
Satan by definition, it's true definition, is the Adversary, or the Opposition. We oppose the Status quo, and the closed minded herd mentality that fuels stupidity and ignorance like a social cancer. Instead we embrace Intellect, Objectivism, Individuality, and Rational self interest.
You are the only person who has control over your life, no "God" will make your life better for you. It is much like Santa Claus, we are told as children that if you don't believe in him you will be punished by not getting any presents. Religions of all kinds work in much the same way, with the exception of Satanism. We do not believe in things we cannot see, and yes that includes "Satan." Why should we, that is not rational.
I'm sure you are asking yourself, "Then why the name Satanism?" The answer is quite simple. Throughout history all religions have only preached obedience and faith while Individuality, and rational thought has been condemned and called ýevilý. It wasn't that long ago that the Churches attempted to ban books that provoke thought, and make people think for themselves instead of buying into the church scams and guilt trips. Satanism is quite the opposite, hence the term "Adversary" (The definition of Satan)
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