Lil Blessings !!!

Yesterday was one tipsy day......the night was tipsier.....the voices were there..anxiety filled my heart....I cried out to the loard and he calmed me down...he soothed my mind...he told me not to worry......he rocked me to sleep........

What does one do at the edge of breaking down???? There seems to be no shoulder to cry on...there seems to be no one who would care...except for the mighty one......but then again...who needs n e one...when he is there to lift me up......take me in his arms and carry me through.....

He's just amazing...his goodness, kindness and grace amazes me......If I was standing alone right now....I would be one insane whore.......but his grace has saved me...grabbed me out from the shackles of sin.....

It feels good be be molded by his mighty hands...sometimes the blows seem harsh...but I try hard not to question....coz with him in control....my heart had learned not to doubt..not to question...but to follow blindly in faith....

God bless u !!!

I wish my heart was stone again !!!

I just can't take it n e more......The time I was cold and Evil...nothing hurt me...nothing touched me...nothing could destroy men....how come ppl have access to my heart now...it's annoying...I don't want it to be that way.....today something silly made me cry.....something really silly...I couldn't biliv how much the past 5 months has changed me......The old me would have turned my back on the bitch and walked away and forgotten her for the rest of my life...serves me right for caring for ppl....serves me right for begining to love ppl again.......they don't deserve my love...they just don't......

I know I'm wrong...but I can't afford to get hurt...I just can't........not any more.......

Every time I make up my mind to walk away something draws me back to the past........This time around it's gonna be me who is gonna break away......It's gonna be me.........

Sheesh...y da rocket am I crying?.........

Kissed by an Angel !!!!

Yesterday was an amazing amazing day.....Had a ball of a time with my angel......its amazing how he can put a huge smile on my face, make your heart sway, make you all tongue tied, send shivers down your spine & make your life complete, hmmm................I didn't want to leave, I wanted to stay.......I so don't know how I drove home........It was the most amazing kiss I've ever tasted.....ever ever tasted...and ever will taste.........

Its amazing how the pain of loving some one too deeply can feel like pleasure......it is the only pleasure I would ever want in this life......It kills me, confuses me....makes me hate my self...make me hate him......but at the same time makes me wanna spend the rest of my life with him....

I saw him close his eyes.....and clenching his fist.......I didn't know what was happening.....Guess I will be on cloud No. 9 for the rest of this week...hehehehe......Waiting doesn't seem to be hard n e more.......even if it takes eternity to fulfil my dream....my only dream......

God has been good to me amidst the wicked kid I've been the past week...He seems to open out more doors and windows than I expected him to...when there just seemed to be no other way.........I have stopped worrying about today let alone tomorrow......coz I have handed over everything to my father in heaven who will provide me with all I need (may not be what I want all the time...but what I need...and whats good for me)....I trust him to take care of me just like he does take care of the birds and the beasts.....Love him ppl...Trust him.....

Was tempted by Astrology the the past two days....I know I shouldn't have gone further....but I didn't have the strength to say no...The slimy veasel just doesn't seem to let me be.....

God Bless u !!!

Somethings you crave for are better left unreceived....coz the minute u receive it, it makes you feel empty.....or rather wish it was never given to you....hehehehe

Jesus Rocks !!!!

Loaded with work...but If I didn't testify what happened in public...then my day just wouldn't be complete.....Last night my dad had left the office door wide open....it was amazing that everything remained untouched till morning.....Priase the Lord......With him around I need none.....

I was ashamed of myself that I was keeping my distance from my master the past 2 weeks........Life was one massive roler coaster....It started giving me everything I have ever wanted...and what did this ungrateful lil bitcch do...go ahead and forget the mighty one who made everything possibel.....

There is a huge mission in my hands...a massive one.....I know I will not be abke to complete it with my own wisdom. power,and energy.........I depend on My Lord like I depend on the sun to give me light and the moon to give me a peceful night......Please him......and thou sahll be pleased........

I am so darn happy.....darn happy forgiving.......The evil sprirt got me by surprise last week and I almost crossed the border to the other world.....but no...Its all an act of choice......

Had a ball of day on the 7th.....with my lil angel....my best friend in the whole wide world.....sheesh...that sure kept me smiling for a long time...hehehehe.....wooohooooooo