Bad bad cold........

Ouch...got a bad bad cold....eyes are burning away.....he..he... but yeah...feeling pretty hyper.....Geez.....never felt like this in ages.......ooops..gotta go....sumone's watching me...spy...spy....dirty dirty spy.....

Why Would u Pretend?

Pretentiousness.....a downright sin....Why would you pretend ??? only hell knows.....why would someone hang around with poeple they detest...outa lonliness...nah....guess not...why would you go out with someone you can't stand to walk with on the road??? outa fear that there just might be no other for ya??? Jack shit....Ppl...stop pretending......Con for revenge...but be true to thy heart...you only con your own sweet self by pretending.....

It hurts to know that so many ppl you love, adore and so fond of pretend...(my radars are too powerful for them to escape).....

You wanna know why I harp so much about pretentiousness and still con through my nose.....well.....I con for fun..thats a diferent story...but I will not hurt you with my cons unless I detest you and hate your wits ...gutts and all you got......I will drag you down with me the minute I figure out that you are living a lie in fronta my eyes....

Your fucking life ain't no business of mine....but if your lil lies affect me one way or another....I swear upon the mighty evil gods of hell...that I will crush your brain with my bare naked hands and watch you bleed......

(Do I sound disturbed to ya.....wel..you don't have to worry if you never have or never will do me wrong).........

If I say I am your friend...I am for the rest of my life (until you decide to go screw things up of course)...If I say I love you... I tell you no lie I really do (unless you've hurt me in the past and I'm pulling a wicked con on ya..ha..ha..ha..)...Don't worry..If I hate you and don't want anything to do with you...I wouldn't pretend...I'll just sue you outa my life.....and warn you to stay away.....

Hex

Its 2.30 pm............I can hear Edwin Mccain's I'll Be....playing in the background..............It takes me back down memory lane............I wanna run away...escape.....from ......I still can't figure out what.........

Life is on full swing......But the empty feeling still exists. The past week has been crazy. I've had my head in the air....kept bumping in to things so unrealistic...but still desirable.

Pressure from all nooks and corners keep building up..... Everybody and everything I love and treasure seems to be taken away from me....(isn't that always the case???) nothing lasts forever...and just when you think you found something you've been looking for all your god damn life....it turns out to be something the higher power forbids you to even look at....But after a while it hits you that everything you think is perfect now may not be perfect as you think it is...after awhile.

Perfectionism..(something which has stopped me from acheiving so much more).... But there seems to be no way of escaping the god damn syndrome........

K...I'm writing a tona crap again...I better stop n get back to work now.....I feel the vibes today...I feel like I'm fulla power to hex the world...