Don't do what you feel, but what is right !!!

Feelings do control most people who think with their heart........and my darling lil angel, just do what's right....not what you feel is right....I hope you actually find access to this blog and read my journal, coz thats where I write everything I can't get my lips to speak......Every heart needs a reason to beat...and my reason is you....(No one knows...not even you.....and it hurts to wake up and lay back down with the reason weighing our soul...screaming to expolde)

Do you know what it is to live...move on...and still feel dead ? Do you know what it is to see your dream right in front of you and still not be able to reach out, grab it and call it your own. Do you know what it is to feel all the love and care of a million people but still feel so alone, just coz u don't really feel the love of that one special person (all for yourself, all the time) who changed your whole life.

Never wanted to be a part of you, but all of you. Never wanted you to loose, but always to win. Never wanted you to whither and die, but to live. Never wanted you to be anyone elses...but mine.

But I speak no more, coz I've never actually succeeded running behind my dreams...the more I run..the further they get.....Let me leave "U & I" in the hands of the forces......I know we'll find each other some day..that's destiny.....Even if moth** f******g DESTINY doesn't really help us I'll do...coz thats where my happiness lies......

Adios Lil Angel....I'll try not to cross your path again...i'll never hope...never dream.....never yearn....for human affection ever.....because they all perish one day or another......(hope you stand on your won two feet as well....coz at the end of the day you are alone....dead alone...)

You will one day look down upon all who destroyed you.....thats' for sure....you will some day be King....and my only wish is that I am Queen

Apai Hapart Upu !!!

P.S:- Every word has been carefully picked, so that not too much will be reveiled....Hope you know that it's you I am speaking about !!!

Confused :-(

Don't you wish you could destroy the world sometimes.....its getting bloody annoying by the day. This luv lust thingy has definetely gotten in to my head..........

Pondering...and pondering about the whole thing....love is complicated....lust isn't....so why bother compliacteing life nah ? but then again....lust is crap..feels like there isn't a choice what so ever....Love can never be true if there is no commitment....?(that's the fu**i*g turth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth) If you love someone but don't want a commitment..then there's something radically wrong inbetween or there is a third party involved.. My buggy buddy for once spat out sumthing which would make some sense..he..he..

As for me...No more pondering.....Wondering & Pondering will only be torturing my already wasted brain...rather watch the world get screwd....

----------Three Can't Tango----------

All about da Scorpio....(Whats not said in the books)

Don't go there if you are weak hearted......as for the Scorpio man, not even I have still figured out what kinda creature he is.....confusing.....loving...but cold..very cold......warm inside...but cold on the outside....jealous (sum try to hide the feeling tho), cruel, unmerciful (the books got it right)...why does he have to feel that he ain't good enuf......why does he have to feel that he ain't appreciated...???? My only death wish would be to understand the Scorpio inside out....hmmm

As for yours truely scorpio princess.......well..yes.....this creature is filled with insecurities...(the reason is because most scorpios have a tendency to have gone through miserable and very bad childhoods)..........

When in a relationship..it would be all or nothing....she will not settle for anything less......She will read you mind...your face...your every action....her radars will be wrapped all around you....be cacreful about your body language when you are with her......(yeah....if you are cheating she will smell it off the air)........nah..but she won't fight......that aight her style...she will simply walk away...never to return again...even if she ever does...it will be to hunt for vengence ..(that happens with both male and female scorpios...the ties they make will never be broken......it will remain...bitter or sweet....no inbetweens...)

(Ahhhhhhhhhh......theres more to this creature......please...if you are a Scorpio reading this....do not hesitate to write to moi)....

(To Be Cont...)

It Hurts

The song below keeps ringing in my head.......for some reason it hurts.

This Way - Jewel Kilcher

Love be still
Love be sweet
Don't you dare
Change a thing
I want to photograph you with my mind
To feel how I feel now all the time

CHORUS :- Say that you'll stay
Forever this way
Forever and forever
That we'll never have to change
Don't move
Don't breathe
Don't change
Don't leave
And promise me
Say you'll stay
We'll stay This way

I get afraid
Don't think ahead
Let's just stay
This way in bed
Feels so good inside your arms
Home is everywhere that you are

Don't move
Don't breathe
Don't change
Don't leave Promise me
We'll always be
This kind, this sweet
This good to me
Promise me
You'll always be

Hmmmm..........

I got so much to write...there's so much bubbling inside.....K...shall chill down....get back to work...and start writing in the evening....

Why Do Foooollllllsss..fall in love.....

Monday Morning...brand new year...brand new week.....brand new day........Life is good baby.....u just need to light the fire....to see the sparks....

As usual was pondering on a few topics that crossed my unsettled mind....

Luv
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Luv..is a deep intensified..complicated feeling that shoots up from the bottom of your soul..(not heart....the heart has a mind of it's own...but the soul doesn't...a heart can be fooled..but not the soul)...

Love is when you feel like you are connected..mind body..and soul.....

Love is when you feel like you wanna let go of the whole world for that one special person.

Love is when you cannot think of n e thing but him...only him....its like you are trapped...and theres no where else to turn....you got your space..you got your time..you got the world spinning around your fingers...but still you can't escape...it's got a hold on you...you are trapped...glued on the spot....hmmm....

Theres a huge difference between luv n' lust...lust is when you just drool over the freaking outer features.....you want to give something only to get something in return....lust is selfish...but love isn't.....(I know u r reading this budddy...end of all arguments....I win) !!! Love is when you open your eyes..and look deep inside...lust without luv is jackshit....it's wrong...ungodly...unholy (look who's talking)....lust doesn't involve passion..(true passion)...and noooooooo...love does not grow with lust....it's the other way around....Lust is gonna turn around and bite you in the face..someday...but luv never will...k...lust is a downright sin...even for a satanist....it's a sin....you whiter n' die...whither n die...die die...whiethr n' die...lust kills you...deroots u....

Sedcution
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Now that's an art...May it be in the way you dress (but that's cheap...that's easy...doesn't really capture ones soul)...may it be in the way you speak..may it be in the way you make others wonder..."damn...how come"???...its the way you behave..(skanky or gracious).....seduction is fun... It ain't evil...it should not be used to destroy....but to make one live...rewive hope..love n joy.....it should be used to rebuild...rebound...capture n nuture...

(Love and) Devotion
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Thats another word for commitment....it's bitter sweet...nooooo...it doesn't trap you....It keeps you from going astray...the human soul has a thing for wandering...from green pastures this minute to the hot and fudgy deserts the next....Life cannot be lived in a gypsy trance.....policies and rules are supposed to be made...(keeping in mind that rules are made to be broken..he..he..he..)....

Critizism
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Be true to your heart and ignore all critisism...as long as you know you are abiding the rules you have set....go with the flow...it doesn't hurt to jump the red tape the world has set for you...but it sure does hurt when you break the ones you've made for yourself...y??? coz your conscience pricks u in your bum at some point or the other making you regret every move you made....

I love the world...and ....even tho it tried...tries...and will not stop trying to fu** me...I'll luv it with all my heart...soul...and all I have......mmmmmvvvvaaaaahhhh....