Who said growing up was eaaazy???? hehehe......Falling in love...falling outa love.....ripping hearts...ripped hearts.....Looking for "the one" "finding the one"..figuring out it aint the one...hehehe......Drama...drama......drama..n more drama....
My mission to find pure passion...true love (When everyone around me keeps saying it just doesn't exist...hehe).....wel...at least there has to be someone close to Mr. Perfect ya??? hehe...yeah...may be there is....there is true, passion...true love.....(The purest is of God....never forget that)......I thrilled I found it.....may be not to keep...."NOT EVERYTHING PERFECT IS URS FOREVER"....one can only be contended with the brief moments of happiness it smothers your life with...hehehe
But then again...u tend to wonder...how perfect is "PERFECT".......hmmm.....u suddenly wonder...Am I in love? or is this just lust? is it right? or is it wrong? hmmm.....( a few more pages of the journal...I can publish a bible of my own...hehehe)...........
Its crazy how ppl never speak up about silly issues....U suddenly sit n ponder whether the culture should be more open or close...how much of traditionalism is healthy..............Heaven help me.......I seriously am lost......
How much of religion is healthy? How harmful can a ceraless kiss get? How new can a new beginign get?
Hmm........What exactly is rebelling against parent mean? What exactly is rebelling...Inverted behaviour??????? hmmmmmm.......
May be I'm going thru another one of em monday blues......hehehe....what can I do...just give it to the Lord and let him make the best outa the day....He rules....He rules...none but he rules......
God Bless Ya !!!!
Started on a new poem......struggling to get the thots in to words......ouch ouch....
Just a few more thots......may be ppl like her never really find true happines......a calibre of her own...hmm.....possessive...and yet open minded.....cruel...and yet kind......detest weakness but yet weak (the only thing strong is the fake image)...hehehe....in love...want commitment...but yet not willing to offer n e ..........dream of challenges.....risk's the key word.....but yet trembling to risk the heart........
Wanting everyone else to stay, while she is quite happy running and hiding.....she knows her faults but yet is helpless to change n e of it, let alone the world........
Convinced that she could make none happy.....convinced that she is usless (vegetable)........(who is responsible)?????????
May be everything scares her.......escapism doesnt seem wrong sumtimes.....
Sometimes......u so wanna vanish....just vanish in to thin air.......wish it would all go away......hmmmm.....Nah I ain't looking for n e answers...I'll kick the asses of n e one who reads this an tries to advice........
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